So I finally went into see psych doc that is not a resident or affiliated with a rehab. She thinks in addition to all the self harm behaviors she diagnosed bipolar. I am soo happy to be bipolar. At least i know what i have and we can address it. I felt relieved. I felt after all these therapies of DBT, therapy groups, rehabs, or steps what was it that i could not get it. Why was I a failure. Now i know that there was something wrong chemically.
I just started new pill regiment today but I started feeling like for the first time I had a psychiatrist that was knowledgeable. I am now on
1 mg of klonopin 2 x
150 mg of Efexcor
25 mg of Lamictal
And seriqueol for sleep.
My lesson is never stop advocating for your self. I went through hell with this resident psych doc and I now feel I am on correct path.
never stop advocating for your self. I have never stopped and if I’m not bi polar well I will keep searching for right combination of meds. I continue my journey. XO